My Sentence:
Brought a new club to Chinquapin that showed what Quid Quo Pro is really about.
Am I better now than I was at the beginning of the school year?
I don’t think I am better now than I was yesterday or in August. I have had nowhere near enough time to work on this project and keep up with my 8 other classes—along with college applications. At the beginning of the school year, I had hoped to accomplish a lot more. I didn’t expect to be doing so poorly in my classes. I didn’t expect to be in the middle of December stressing about whether I’m going to get into a college or even graduate. This project would be great to do, if I were at public school. It has a good idea; however, I don’t believe it has any business being forced on a senior class that is already overwhelmed.
I don’t think I am better than I was yesterday because I don’t feel better. I felt as if I’ve lost more this year. I no longer feel the same joy in going to class. I now feel a sense of dread inside me. I feel as though this class has contributed to the lack of feeling I feel. Currently, I’m in a state of discomfort because of the atmosphere I’m constantly in. My classmates are no longer the same people they were at the beginning of the year. They share the same dreadful feelings I have. It would be easier to move forward with this project if I didn’t know that it was bringing down my whole class
What skills or habits of mind have I learned?
I’ve learned that sometimes people are forced to do things they don’t want to do and that I just need to keep going. I’ve learned that in the future, I may be working at an office job I hate, and that I’m going to be forced to do things I don’t like. This class is the quintessential example of what I fear my future will be like. I would like to not end up at a job in which I try to “just get through” no matter how miserable I am working there. This class and this project have really helped in making me get used to a situation that I might be stuck in later. I am praying that I never get stuck doing a job I hate, but it’s a good thing that this class prepares me just in case.
How have I grown?
I don’t necessarily know if I’ve grown. It seems more like I’ve been hindered by this project. The only way I can see that I’ve grown is by being able to handle a lot more stress. My will and strength have grown. I’m amazed by how much I can handle now. I don’t think in the past years I would have been able to keep going. I think this project—and this year in general—has been a test for me. It has been testing my tolerance/patience. Before, I would have just given up, but now I’ve learned to keep dragging myself along.
What steps have I taken towards executing my plans?
So far, I have done research about what I want the meetings to be about. I’ve selected what I think the girls need to know, and have added other things that might be useful to know about. We now have a timeline for our club to start next semester. Hopefully all goes smoothly.
